today's the 5th anniversary

Today marks the fifth anniversary of my birth mother's suicide. In some years this day goes by without me thinking too very long about it, but somehow this year is different. Maybe I am dwelling on this too long, or maybe I just shouldn't blog about it or at all, but I miss her. I feel like the duck (?) in Are you my mother - I just want my mama.

Here's yesterday's "harvest" from the garden:



For all the gardeners out there, this is:
5 jet star tomatoes
1 marglobe tomato
2 big beef tomatoes
3 elite bell peppers
3 big bertha peppers (the skinnier ones)
1 little fingers eggplant
2 rainbow carrots (from the give-away packet from Harris Seeds)
1 burpless cucumber
3 handfuls of grape agriset and supersonic tomatoes (the cherry ones)
1 serrano peppers
a bunch of spinach
a bit of cilantro (already bolted, but we still eat it)

I plan on canning some salsa and some spaghetti sauce this weekend.

some melon flower photos from our garden

Just to amuse myself, I wanted to share some pictures of our cantaloupe from our garden. The bees have loved them this summer, merrily pollinating away. These flowers are from the Superstar cantaloupe from Harris seeds, whose vines grow about 5 inches per day (stop taking over the peppers, yo!). Our largest melon is about 7 1/2 inches long, so far.

Ambivalent...

Okay, so as the title of this post says, I'm a bit ambivalent about the blog. I started blogging a while ago, then deleted everything, as I'm (still) unsure what to say. My life is not exciting, nor do I have any amazing perspectives on the world: I'm just me.

So, who is that?
I'm a knitter, a spinner, a gardener, a canoer, an adoptee, and am generally an introvert. I don't know if this bodes well or not for the fate of this blog.